Solaced Seraphim’s Domain of Philosophy

In the obligation of love, and all related accessions and accessories of it, the conditions and requisites must follow:
1) there must be a reciprocal sense of care and duty to the partners binded to the obligation (one should care about each other)
2) there should be an act that presents a positive mentality that furthers the cause of the obligation (there must be bonding time, or a sense to bond with your loved one)
3) liability arising from the obligation due to the act or omission that incurs damage to the creditor (usually the girl), the debtor is responsible, and the remedy may include inflorademnation (give flowers), inchocodemnation (give chocolates) or an intimate contact of the lips resulting to heightened sexual pleasure (just rush in and kiss her hard). If all mentioned remedies cannot be done, an act of oral apology is the most suitable (just say sorry)
4) if any partner, should, in any case, regardless of all the conditions and requisites, find another partner to bind his/her own self into, the obligation love does not exist. The obligation is now dissolved and a series of unforeseen events can be stated as a breakup will occur. This is because of the phrase "If you are in love, don’t be surprised that it will fly out the window the next day"

Should any of these requisites and conditions are not present, then it is not love.

just infatuation.

I felt my chest thud out painfully.

It must’ve been some heart defect, but you can never be too sure about it.

I mean, I can’t possibly raise my cholesterol levels that high. *Sigh* I’m losing my mind. But I felt that feeling just now.

I felt my heart break. Crack, crack….

I felt months ago that its been revealing cracks all around it. Of coruse, I tried to put glue or tape, like immersing myself into stimulating activities and all that stuff…

gym, playing DoTa, coffee breaks, hanging out with my friends, annoy my pet doggies, look at the sunrise and sunset, run, run in the threadmill, break a joke here and there…

bt nothing seemed to work. I heard a hugh CRACK! a few hours ago, and I’ve been in pain ever since.

I did go to the gym, and I’ve worked on my chest…but the pain is still there.

It must be the muscles right?

It shouldn’t be as painful as this…

not painful enough to make tears out of my eyes.

Eagles, as they soar high, their tears freezes as ice in the wide blue sky…

I’m tired of this.I just want to quit.

it just that life has been hard for me lately, no matter how much I improved. I’m depressed, not jsut because of my personal problems, but other pressures from the outside.

I thought I could handle it.I’m smart, so I’m supposed to handle my problems with finesse and grace. I could never let others see my darkness; my weird and funny side, yes, but the darkness still lurks deep within.

I’m quite exhausted, really.I’m increasing my physical stamina, but my emotional one is getting thin.I think I’m going to burn out soon. I hope not. Many people are expecting from me. I swear I won’t let me down.

I must be strong somehow, despite of the many emotional wounds I bear. Even if I stumble and fall, I’ll struggle to stand up just to tell myself I’m alive, that I can live my life as I want it to be.

I want to be truly happy, but it seems so far away.

And I really want to cry so bad butI can’t! I can’t!

Because eagles don’t cry. They simply soar the sky, and let her caress the tears away.

I just wish no one would clip my wings away…

I stood before it, and I saw a ghost hovering over me.

Like a specter that watched me ever since immemorial. It grew with me, watched me along the way. And yet I never did the same to it.

It screamed one day, when I fell into depression. He must’ve experienced a bad day in that world of his. The specter looked at me and smiled sadly; there was nothing I can do.

When my heart fell apart, I consulted him, but all I saw were tears in his eyes, and blood stained his hand; it must’ve killed someone in that other world. The specter looked at me, his onyx eyes seemed frosted with ice. There was nothing I can do.

When I laughed and smiled, he was laughing and smiling all the way too. I would come and go and see him there, as if to check on me casually. But what really puzzled me is how he can copy my movements so perfectly…

I gasped; it was a realization of a simple fact.

But I cannot help but hide it. The specter just smiled and waved me off. ‘Just go there and have fun’ I read in his lips ‘Come on, don’t mind me in this world. I can deal with it’

‘What makes you say that?’ I would ask.

The specter merely smiled ‘Because you’re the one who’s smiling, not me’

I would’ve answered, had I not turned off the light.

It was a beautiful day; I wouldn’t waste my time in the gate to that other world I cannot reach.

After all, I’m sure he’s enjoying himself over there, thinking the same thoughts as I have.

And perhaps he realized I’m jumping off a building.

He must be smiling.

You are the only one who can take care of yourself.

You are you. He is he. She is she. You are what you think you are, and so what other think of you is what are as well.

Thus, what you think you are and what others think about you is what you truly are. But this is limited. You are the only one who knows the inner recesses of your mind, the depths of reality that only you can see. The mere truths that reside within you.

Since truth is with you, you must take care of yourself.

Just as there is a fundamental incompleteness within us, a void that we had since the very start of our thoughts. We are alone, we are isolated. We are separated from the walls between our hearts. That is what makes us unique

Since you are alone, you must take care of yourself.

Just as you cannot love others without loving yourself. Just as you can accustom yourself for much love since you have accustomed to never have been loved.

Were you abandoned? did you wear a mask all this time?

Did you acted like some noble person, and desired to dirty yourself so much so you cannot depend on others anymore?

This world is cruel place. You must take care of yourself.

Just as you try to attain praise form others. Just as you struggle with life’s blows and misconceptions. Just as many others are suffering and hating, while you stand there doing nothing.

Can I be in your side? Can you be in my side?

Can you be more considerate, loving perhaps? can you extend your hand to another?

There is someone you can save, so you must take care of yourself.

Just as you are the created being of god. Just as you are the ruler of all the earth, the seas, and all the creatures before it. Just as you have the choice to extinguish the stars and borrow the curve of the moon. You are you. You must love yourself.

because people are alone out there. They are in pain, are they not? You’re not the only one.

Or are you just more comfortable thinking that way?

And as the sun rises and sets in the sky, your life leads on.

You must take care of yourself.

Because no one will do